A comic for the Nib for International Women's Day.

More details on the actual comic this is referencing later.

More details on the actual comic this is referencing later.

Hello! I did this comic for International Women's Day along with some other artists. You can see all of them here.

The comic I am doing about my mother is going to be in an anthology that will be up on IndieGoGo. More info on that to come. The comic for it is due on April 4th, so I need to actually get it all drawn and scanned by the 27th because I'm moving to DE and I'm worried my scanner is going to get wrecked in the trip (I couldn't make it in RI unfortunately, but now that I'm leaving I really want to get out of Providence. And I got a job waiting for me in DE that will be good. Plus now I can go visit DC frequently).  

So yeah, I'm moving and have a million things to do beforehand. And I'm JUST starting to panic about it because it is starting to seem real.

I have one more idea I want to pitch to the Nib about my genetic bone disease (Osteogenesis Imperfecta) that I think could be a really good comic but I cannot figure out an ending, so we'll see if they accept that pitch. 

But yeah, comics are happening, ever so slowly. When I leave RI I'll need to really get my act together because the only way I've been productive is by working with other people, and I don't know anyone in DE so it's going to be rough to get into a groove. That and I'm not in the greatest headspace right now so I'm not being productive here either but I want to draw four pages of comics and ink that along with an additional 5 before moving so I really gotta get may act together. 

A response to some nice fan mail

Not a lot of fans get in contact with me regularly, but it is very nice when they do. I have actually formed some online friendships with fans that started when they contacted me to tell me that my comics meant a lot to them, or they had picked them up somewhere. The comic, more so than any other, that people come out of the woodwork to talk to me about is Fractured.

Fractured is not my most popular comic by any means. It's only been mildly successful on social media, and has very mixed results when I try to sell it at conventions. But it seems that with the people that do like it, it resonates with them HARD. People have flat out told me that reading it was a cathartic experience, people have thanked me for making. Literally no other comic of mine has generated this kind of out reach. Getting messages from people that like my work can completely turn my day around. I'm really thankful for it.

I received one message from a teenager on tumblr saying that she is going through all the crap that is talked about in Fractured, and that the comic meant a lot to her. That message meant a lot to me, so in response I drew the following doodle comic (please excuse the typos):

My life is not great right now. In fact, I am writing this post literally less than two hours after I blew yet ANOTHER interview. But I'm still better than I was in high school. And hopefully my thirties will be better than my 20s too.

 

I Have Been Meaning to Update for A While

So what's been going on with me and my comics recently?

A lot, I guess. This is like 3 separate posts combined into one because I have been bad about doing anything recently.

Okay, so where to start:

This dumb guy got my dumb face tattoo'd on his dumb arm FOREVER.

This dumb guy got my dumb face tattoo'd on his dumb arm FOREVER.

A fan of mine (we're starting to become online friends, but that's more of an aside) commissioned me for a tattoo of my art. Not only did he get a tattoo of my art, he got a tattoo of ME. This kid, as sweet as he is, is also nuts. I was freaking out about the fact that Everything's Fine Vol 2 wasn't making any money online (it eventually did btw, but as the time no one was buying it even though you can literally get it for FREE) and in the middle of my "OH MY GOD HOW DO I MONETIZE MY WORK???" crisis and this guy (James) DMs me asking for a tattoo. I bang it out in 3 minutes, make $35, then he gets it done at noon the next day. Anyway, it was obviously very flattering and sweet and cool and a major artistic achievement for sure.

Esther and Audrey- though I need to figure out Esther's hair because right now she's a bit too geeky

Esther and Audrey- though I need to figure out Esther's hair because right now she's a bit too geeky

Audrey and Derrick

Audrey and Derrick

Sydney and Mel

Sydney and Mel

I'm currently working on penciling the first section of the prologue to my webcomic starring these guys. I'm sure I've talked about them before, but I don't have a title or a elevator pitch for this thing yet. Also I keep getting sidetracked by smaller projects. I've been working on the script on and off since May and Will make FINAL edits to it tonight. And then I don't care if the script is full of wholes anymore I'm done with it I need to start working on the fun part of this freaking comic which is drawing it. THAT SAID, there's a ton of action in this thing because it's a fantasy comic (or at least, a slice of life comic with fantasy elements) so I have to draw action which is kicking my ass because I've never done it before and my art is SO STIFF. 

The various sidetracks I've had that have kept me from working on this comic include: Everything's Fine Vol 2, Safe, designing a pin, and writing a script for a non fiction comic about abortion for a charity anthology (more on that later). I also tried making prints but I decided that I don't want to lug prints to Canada for TCAF, so I'm going to make stickers instead.

Which brings me to the fact that I got into my first juried convention: Toronto Comic Arts Festival (TCAF). I'll add it to the calendar when I am told what table I'm at. I'm very nervous about it, but hopefully it'll be good. I usually hate conventions, but I've had fun at the last two events I tabled at, including the New-ish Festival last Saturday. The last two shows also have not been comic centric. I was the only cartoonist at both shows, and I think that might be partially why I enjoyed them more. Being at non comic show is WAY less pressure, and it's much more exciting to sell a comic in the wild then at a show that is specifically for comic fans. Also, because both the events were local and at night, I actually slept the night before (I always pull anxiety induced all nighters before major cons, I just can't sleep I'm too stressed out). But yes, I had fun at the New-ish festival, and hopefully will have fun at TCAF. I'm going to try to apply to a lot of conventions this year, we'll see if I get in. I have been doing conventions all wrong the last two years, focusing on sales and not on networking. But I'm tabling with new people who know a lot of other new people so hopefully I'll rectify that this time.

Finally, I had this conversation with my psychiatrist:

Long story short, I'm fucking impossible.

The nerve-wracking experience of sharing comics (both in general and Safe specifically) on Social Media

Hello!

I have been a bundle of nerves all week. I shared Safe on Facebook last night, and will be posting it to my Tumblr at 4pm tomorrow and on my Twitter on 11am on Thursday. Now, sharing my comics on Facebook has always been mixed bag for me. When I post my stuff on other social media, social media that is kept up solely to help my career, I can disconnect with the fact that I am sharing personal work, because I'm, on the whole, doing it for strangers. But with Facebook, a social media platform that I only use to maintain connections with real life friends; a platform that I, on the whole, refuse to use to network with strangers; I feel more exposed because if it does not get a response, it's much more of a personal affront than if it gets no response on Tumblr and Twitter. It is part of the reason I have avoided doing it so long, and is part of the reason I'm very selective with what I post (my Everything's Fine series is never going to be posted there, because my comics full of swears about my mental health issues doesn't need to be seen by my brother in law's grandma and my former employers).

But I’ve been having a hard time trying to pinpoint why Safe going up on these other social media platforms, the ones I usually don't think twice about posting to, is so scary for me. Sharing a comic is always nerve wracking, but sharing THIS comic is the first time where I actually feel vulnerable doing so. The reason for this, I have come to realize, is two fold:

-this comic has been my main coping mechanism for dealing with anxiety about the new administration.

-more importantly, this comic has been my main coping mechanism for my loneliness caused by being single and unemployed in a new city. I have actually done a surprisingly good job at making friends. But those connections are new so they are still shallow. And me coming to terms with the fact recently that I probably do want to be in a romantic relationship, even though I thought I could get by without one, and seeing the barriers that are in the way of that happening (my fear of sex, my appearance, my pickiness in a partner, my fear of intimacy) has been rough for me to realize. So I escaped this pain and fear by doing a comic that is essentially a cute little love story, because if I can’t experience that for myself at least I can write one and live vicariously through my characters. Which, in a way, I believe has the potential to be damaging, because it’s causing me to avoid confronting an issue that could, if resolved, make me significantly more happy. 

But anyway, that’s the head space I’m in right now. 

New comic up on Gumroad!

 

HEY GUYS!

I have shared some of this work here, but my new collection of autobio gag strips Everything’s Fine: And On And On is now available for pay as you want on gumroad.  This collection deals with anxiety, depression, and my ongoing questioning of my sexual orientation (am I asexual? WHO KNOWS! I’m trying to figure that out).


This collection will never be put it’s entirety online, so unless you grab it from me in print at a convention, this is the only way you can get it.


So please buy it and spread the word! 

 

 

So, I haven't updated in a while...

I have been busy doing a 16 page comic about my feelings about the incoming Trump presidency. It's a fictional story about a gay couple, one of whom is a Thai immigrant, dealing with homophobia and racism post election. 

This is one of the characters, Carl Boccio.

This is one of the characters, Carl Boccio.

A friend of mine, Salakjit, a great cartoonist and Thai immigrant herself, helped me write this comic. I want this thing done and online by inauguration. 

This is the scene Salakjit helped out with the most.

This is the scene Salakjit helped out with the most.

Salakjit is not only really talented, she's also one of my best friends. My comic, Malai, was about her actually. So yeah, we've had some bumps but our friendship is really solid and important to me. 

Here is a conversation I had with her recently:

She also goes by Sandi.

She also goes by Sandi.

 

As you can see, I've also been doing a lot autobio doodle comics. All of them are posted to my Twitter. Here's one about post election activism:

GO TO HELL PAUL RYAN!

GO TO HELL PAUL RYAN!

That's all for now. Keep an eye out for my new comic soon. I've also got a few more blog posts in the works, including one I really have to do even though it will be painful to write.

Happy Holidays (which I hate, but that's just me).